Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Sad Story

Some of you might be familiar with or at least heard of Asia Carrera. She was a pretty popular pornographic film actress. She got out of the business a few years ago to get married and start a family. Asia has always been quite into computers. She always owned, designed, and managed her own FREE website. These are the last 3 posts on her bulletin. Please take the time to read them.

05/07 - It's amazing how low-stress my life is now! It's a complete 180 from my life 3 years ago, and it's sooooo wonderful!! I never have to count down the days to any dreaded public appearances or show up late to work because I'm too afraid to leave the house. No more pulling all-nighters because I have to work all day AND all night to get things done. All I have to worry about now is keeping this little girl of mine happy, and it's such an EASY job!! And I LOVE it!! Of course I'm 6 1/2 months pregnant with baby boy Devin, but I still manage to stay pretty active, like taking Catty for bike rides to the playground every day! We also take Catty out to eat her favorite foods and we even let her play ball in the house! Yeah, all in all, I'd say this is one happy little girl, and I'm so excited that in just 3 months we get to add another baby to the mix! I may have been good at being a pornstar, but being a mommy is SO much more fun and rewarding!! Every day I look at this little girl and she just makes me glad to be alive! Being a mommy is the absolute BEST!! :o)

06/11 - ...and the fairy tale comes to an end. The police just left my house. Don was driving home from a business meeting in Las Vegas, and he got into an accident and rolled the Jeep. He's dead. He's never coming back to me. My husband, my soulmate, my other half, the one I was meant to grow old with. I'm almost 8 months pregnant with a son he will never get to see, and I have a one year old daughter who will never be able to remember anything about her father... and he was such a GOOD father to her, she was such a daddy's girl you wouldn't have believed it! Now she'll just have to take my word for it when I tell her how much daddy loved her, because she's too young to remember him for too much longer. Oh god, how that breaks my heart. How am I going to go on without him? How am I going to get a job at almost 8 months pregnant, with a one year old baby??? I couldn't go back to porn even if I wanted to, I'm much too huge. My ex-hubby, Bud Lee, is driving out here in the morning with another good friend of mine, and they are going to help me get through this. Somehow. If anyone wants to make a charitable donation to a pregnant widow who doesn't know how she's going to raise these two babies on her own, there's a spot on my
sales page where you can donate up to $100. If anyone wants to send more than that (I'd be forever grateful!), you can use my Paypal Account, to address asiac@asiacarrera.com (that's asiaC@, not just asia@). I trust that no one out there is heartless enough to misuse that email address at a time like this. Oh god how I wish I could wake up from this nightmare. My life went from being a dream come true to hell on earth in just an instant. Please keep me in your thoughts and send me strength! I've got to get through this for my two little babies, otherwise I swear I'd have nothing to live for anymore. But I have no choice, I will do the best I can for Catty and Devin, somehow, some way, I must...

06/11 more - I asked Bud & friend to stop at the Clark County Coroner's office on the way here from LA as they pass through Vegas, to pick up Don's belongings and anything from the truck... they were told that the truck was strewn over 300 yards, wheels here, axle there... he rolled across so many lanes the truck was just disintegrated... there was an RN (registered nurse) in the car behind him, she tried to help Don, but there was nothing she could do. I can only hope it means he died quickly and maybe painlessly? It just breaks my heart to see Catty's smiling face now, knowing she has no daddy... I show her pictures of Daddy and say "who's that, Catty?" and she shouts "Dadn! Dadn!"... I'm going to have to do that with her every day so she never forgets her daddy. Oh please give me the strength to get through this, somehow... we had no life insurance, I have no car now, no job, no income, I'm pregnant, I have a one-year old baby... this is not how my life was supposed to go. What wouldn't I give to go two days back in time and just hold Don again and never ever let him go...

This is just another harsh reminder of how unpredictable life is. You never know when things can just take a turn for the better or the worse. This is not a unique situation but it should serve as a reminder to all of us that life is short. There is no use is in fussing and fighting. Remember to tell the people you care about how much you love them, everyday.


IndCoup said...

I smell a rat. Asking for donations and blogging 1 day after he was killed? Hmm.

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Avi said...

damn bro, you really know how to get under things. i thought at the time it was pretty strange that she was already asking for money. you would think that it would take a while for a person to get over the initial shock of loosing a loved one in a car accident before they start worrying about bills. and they obviusly do have a running business.